FACTS ABOUT ME

I want to post something personal. Lol.

  1. I hate the smell of Vicks, or any ointment. Ew! A BIG NO, NO.
  2. When I was younger and much stupider, my uncle had a hardware business and he didn’t know what to name it. I jokingly suggested he name it after me and he did! It was then known as “Inteshar Hardware”. Lol, and later he had a bakery and he also named it after me. 
  3. I am claustrophobic (mild). I really find it very hard to breathe in small rooms and spaces. Huhu, finding a big room to stay in for college is hard (and expensive!).
  4. One of my biggest phobias is earthquake. I always freeze whenever I feel, even the slightest, earthquake!
  5. I can’t swim. I think I will die before I learn how to swim. (I think this is because I have fear of depths. Also the sea is a scary, scary place, it is full of mystery.)
  6. I am tone deaf. I can’t sing. I am monotonic. Wait til you hear me sing, lol. But it doesn’t stop me from singing in public places. I’m not shy, haha.
  7. I ALSO CAN’T DANCE. FVCK, I DON’T HAVE A TALENT.
  8. I used to be at the top of my class. Then life happened. I realized there’s so much more to life than good grades. Lol, excuses.
  9. REBEL. I started rebelling at a very young age. Thank God my parents are patient with me.
  10. Spoiled brat. ✌ (Bc I cry when I don’t get what I want. I also threathen my mum that if I don’t get what I want, I’ll stop schooling. Idk why this works? Does my mum really think I would do that?!)
  11. I am scared of frogs. It started when I was in high school. We dissected a frog in bio class and ours was too big. I was traumatized.
  12. I am a reader. I think there was one summer when I read about 30 books? My fav are The Kite Runner and By The River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept.
  13. Arts > Sciences (I’m from a science high school tho)
  14. My ultimate dream job is forensic psychologist. I would pursue this if only I were allowed to take Psychology (long story).
  15. My ultimate dream is to work at FBI.
  16. I was obsessed with Breaking Bad, it influenced me to take up Chemical Engineering (meth is instant money lol). I know I should’ve just taken up Chemistry but I wanted an Engr. on my name. Hahaha.
  17. But I am planning to shift to a pre-med course because dreams change and now I want to be a doctor.
  18. I don’t have a sweet tooth. Sometimes just pictures of sweet stuff make me want to puke.
  19. My fave colors are Maroon and Grey.
  20. I love adventures. I’m down to do almost anything except if it involves jumping/dipping into deep waters.
  21. My wardrobe consists of 50% white shirts (I LOVE WHITE SHIRTS), 20% striped clothes, 20% plain ones, 10% mixture of anything not white, striped, or plain.
  22. When I was in primary school, I was once told to go out (I was being so noisy). I proudly stood and walked out of class.
  23. I’m clumsy af. My family and I are convinced that I ruin everything that I put my hands on. It’s true.
  24. I have a resting bitch face. People are always scared to approach me at first because of my “maldita” face. I also have a bad habit of looking at people head-to-toe, I don’t even realize I’m doing it until somebody points it out. I have a bitch stare too. BUT I AM NOT A BITCH. I AM FRIENDLY (HAHAHA).
  25. I THINK I AM MENTALLY UNSTABLE. HAHAHAHUHUHU.
  26. I am a fast learner when it comes to languages. This is why I know many languages.
  27. I have a weird food taste. I don’t eat a lot of stuff that normal people love to eat.
  28. I am awkward and really bad at making new friends. Eeeeppp. 
  29. Adele, Maroon 5, One Republic, Bruno Mars
  30. My problem is I’m too forgiving and forgetful 😦
  31. When I was in Grade 6, I fell and rolled on one of the staircases at school. Some idiot threw a fake snake there and people started panicking and then boom I was rolling. Fucking embarassing.
  32. I hate cartoons. And any movie that is animated. Peace on earth.
  33. Frustrated writer 😦
  34. I probably belong to the top 10 list of laziest people in the world. Even thinking is too much work for me.
  35. I am tired and sleepy. I’ll end it here. Goodnight. 
    FACTS ABOUT ME

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    Have you ever given thought to how you are going to leave this world? 

    Is it going to be easy? Is it going to hurt? Is it going to be fast? Or is it going to be a long torture?

    Is it going to be a happy one? Is it going to make you glad everything is over? Is it gonna make the people around you cry?

    Is it today? Is it tomorrow? Is it soon?

    Is your life lived?

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    July 05, 2016

    I am not the kind of person to have a bucketlist. Aside from the usual “travel the world” thing, there’s really nothing much I can think of that I would want to do or try before I die. I don’t know, maybe I’m just too lazy to think and make a list. Maybe I just really don’t have an idea what I want to do with my life. I’ve always been the “live in the moment” type. I don’t think ahead (haha, for real though). I don’t know what I want. But I’ll know for sure when it’s right in front of me. So instead of writing something about crossing things off my bucketlist, I think I’ll just write about my spontaneity. And then maybe eventually, they’ll become the bucketlist I never had, but achieved. 

    I’ll start from the little things. 

    I was sitting behind my sister in the car and I saw that she has 3 piercings on her left ear. And it looked cute to me. So the next day, I got my right ear pierced twice (I already have one so that makes a total of 3 piercings). I actually got my ear pierced 5 times because I was feeling OC. I wanted the piercings to make a straight line. The first ones were kind of not aligned with the original one.

    So yeah, that’s it. I now have 3 piercings on my right ear. I feel like I always wanted to do this all my life, even though I only realized it now. 😁

    PS: Just in case you were wondering if it hurt, no, it did not hurt at all. So if you’re thinking about getting pierced, go! 

    July 05, 2016

    It Takes Courage

    It takes strength to be firm,
    It takes courage to be gentle.

    It takes strength to conquer,
    It takes courage to surrender.

    It takes strength to be certain,
    It takes courage to have doubt.

    It takes strength to fit in,
    It takes courage to stand out.

    It takes strength to feel a friend’s pain,
    It takes courage to feel your own pain.

    It takes strength to endure abuse,
    It takes courage to stop it.

    It takes strength to stand alone,
    It takes courage to lean on another.

    It takes strength to love,
    It takes courage to be loved.

    It takes strength to survive,
    It takes courage to live.

    It Takes Courage

    “When Love Arrives”

    This is another beautiful poem that I read in high school. Special thanks to my teacher for sharing this to me. This is “When Love Arrives” by Sarah Kay and Phil Kaye. This is actually a spoken poetry, they have a live performance of this and you can Youtube it. Worth the long read, I promise. 🙂

    [Sarah & Phil]
    I knew exactly what love looked like…
    In seventh grade

    [Sarah]
    Even though I hadn’t met love yet
    If love had wandered into my homeroom
    I would have recognized him at first glance
    Love wore a hemp necklace

    [Phil]
    I would have recognized her at first glance
    Love wore a tight French braid

    [Sarah]
    Love played acoustic guitar
    And knew all my favorite Beatles songs

    [Phil]
    Love wasn’t afraid to ride the bus with me

    [Sarah & Phil]
    And I knew

    [Sarah]
    I just must be searching the wrong classroom

    [Phil]
    Just must be checking the wrong hallways
    She was there, I was sure of it

    [Sarah]
    If only I could find him

    [Sarah & Phil]
    But when love finally showed up

    [Phil]
    She had a bowl cut

    [Sarah]
    He wore the same clothes every day for a week

    [Phil]
    Love hated the bus

    [Sarah]
    Love didn’t know anything about the Beatles

    [Sarah & Phil]
    Instead

    [Phil]
    Every time I tried to kiss love

    [Sarah & Phil]
    Our teeth got in the way

    [Sarah]
    Love became the reason I lied to my parents

    [Phil]
    “I’m going to… Ben’s house”

    [Sarah]
    Love had terrible rhythm on the dance floor
    But made sure we never missed a slow song

    [Phil]
    Love waited by the phone because she knew if her father picked up it would be

    [Sarah (Phil)]
    “Hello ?” (*Heavy breathing*)
    “Hello ?” (*Heavy breathing*)
    “I guess they hung up”

    [Phil]
    And love grew

    [Sarah]
    Stretched like a trampoline

    [Phil]
    Love changed

    [Sarah]
    Love disappeared… slowly
    Like baby teeth, losing parts of me I thought I needed

    [Phil]
    Love vanished like an amateur magician
    Everyone could see the trapdoor but me

    [Sarah]
    Like a flat tire
    There were other places I had planned on going

    [Sarah & Phil]
    But my plans didn’t matter

    [Sarah]
    Love stayed away for years
    And when love finally reappeared, I barely recognized him

    [Phil]
    Love smelled different now, had darker eyes

    [Sarah]
    A broader back
    Love came with freckles I didn’t recognize

    [Phil]
    New birthmarks, a softer voice

    [Sarah]
    Now there were new sleeping patterns

    [Phil]
    New favorite books

    [Sarah]
    Love had songs that reminded him of someone else

    [Phil]
    Songs love didn’t like to listen to

    [Sarah & Phil]
    So did I…

    [Phil]
    But we found a park bench that fit us perfectly

    [Sarah]
    We found jokes that make us laugh

    [Phil]
    And now love makes me fresh homemade chocolate chip cookies

    [Sarah]
    But love will probably finish most of them for a midnight snack

    [Phil]
    Loves looks great in lingerie but still likes to wear her retainer

    [Sarah]
    Love is a terrible driver, but a great navigator

    [Phil]
    Love knows where she’s going
    It just might take her two hours longer than she planned

    [Sarah]
    Love is messier now

    [Phil]
    Not as simple

    [Sarah]
    Love uses the word “boobs” in front of my parents

    [Phil]
    Love chews two loud

    [Sarah]
    Love leaves the cap off the toothpaste

    [Phil]
    Love uses smiley faces in her text messages

    [Sarah]
    And turns out

    [Sarah & Phil]
    Love shits !

    [Sarah]
    But love also cries
    And love will tell you, “You are beautiful”

    [Phil]
    And mean it

    [Sarah (Phil)]
    Over and over again (“You are beautiful”)
    When you just wake up- (“You are beautiful”)
    When you’ve just been crying- (“You are beautiful”)
    When you don’t wanna hear it- (“You are beautiful”)
    When you don’t believe it- (“You are beautiful”)
    When nobody else will tell you, (“You are beautiful”)
    Love still thinks… (“…”)

    [Sarah]
    You are beautiful

    [Phil]
    But love is not perfect and will sometimes forget

    [Sarah]
    When you need to hear it most

    [Sarah & Phil]
    You are beautiful

    [Sarah]
    Do not forget this

    [Phil]
    Love is not who you were expecting
    Love is not what you can predict

    [Sarah]
    Maybe love is in New York City already asleep
    You are in California, Australia, wide awake
    Maybe love is always in the wrong timezone

    [Phil]
    Maybe love is not ready for you
    Maybe you are not ready for love

    [Sarah]
    Maybe love just isn’t the marrying type

    [Phil]
    Maybe the next time you see love is twenty years after the divorce
    Love looks older now, but just as beautiful as you remember

    [Sarah]
    Maybe love is only there for a month

    [Phil]
    Maybe love is there for every firework, every birthday party, every hospital visit

    [Sarah]
    Maybe love stays

    [Phil]
    Maybe love can’t

    [Sarah & Phil]
    Maybe love shouldn’t…

    [Phil]
    Love arrives exactly when love is supposed to
    And love leaves exactly when love must

    [Sarah]
    When love arrives say,

    [Sarah & Phil]
    “Welcome, make yourself comfortable”

    [Phil]
    If love leaves, ask her to leave the door open behind her

    [Sarah]
    Turn off the music, listen to the quiet

    [Phil]
    Whisper,

    [Sarah & Phil]
    “Thank you for stopping by”

    “When Love Arrives”

    Just another typical conversation with my sister

    Sister: Just like a shoe, if someone is meant for you, they will fit just perfectly. No forcing, no struggling, no pain.

    Me: Yes, but some people have the same size as you.

    Sister: Duh, it’s not like they only made one pair of that size.

    Me: Exactly, which is why you can’t be so sure. Just because it fits perfectly, doesn’t mean it’s the right one for you. You have to check the others out, there might be some flaws, or one might feel better than the other, or whatever. Just, you can’t be so sure.

    Just another typical conversation with my sister